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Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn metroda, tam kar\u015f\u0131mda oturan o h\u0131rpani adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne dik dik bakarken yakaland\u0131m. Hani \u015fu her g\u00fcn yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7ip gitti\u011finiz, d\u00fcnyay\u0131 s\u0131rt\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f gibi duran, y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki her \u00e7izgi birer sokak haritas\u0131na benzeyen adamlardan biriydi i\u015fte. Adam hakl\u0131 olarak rahats\u0131z oldu, ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131, “Ne bak\u0131yorsun birader, resmimi mi \u00e7ekeceksin?” der gibi ters bir bak\u0131\u015f f\u0131rlatt\u0131. (Ki hakl\u0131d\u0131r, g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde birinin y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00fc\u00e7 saniyeden fazla bakarsan\u0131z ya kavga \u00e7\u0131kar ya da i\u015f mahkemede biter.) Hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim, kafam\u0131 sallad\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imden de “Yok be g\u00fczel karde\u015fim,” dedim, “resmini \u00e7ekmeyece\u011fim, seni \u00e7izece\u011fim. Ama \u00f6nce o g\u00f6zlerinin alt\u0131ndaki torbalarda birikmi\u015f k\u0131rk y\u0131ll\u0131k gurbet hikayesini okumam laz\u0131m.”<\/p>\n
K\u0131rk y\u0131ld\u0131r elime kalem al\u0131p insan \u00e7iziyorum ben. Dile kolay, neredeyse yar\u0131m as\u0131r. Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te \u00f6n\u00fcmden binlerce y\u00fcz ge\u00e7ti. Krallar, dilenciler, akademisyenler, f\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 \u00e7\u0131raklar\u0131, devrimciler ve o devrimlerin alt\u0131nda ezilenler… Hepsini \u00e7izdim. Ve bu k\u0131rk y\u0131lda \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim en b\u00fcy\u00fck hakikat \u015fudur: Bir insan\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc, o insan\u0131n kendi eliyle yazamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 otobiyografisidir.<\/strong> A\u011f\u0131z yalan s\u00f6yler, kelimeler arkadan dolan\u0131r, g\u00f6zler cilalan\u0131r ama o elmac\u0131k kemi\u011finin hemen alt\u0131ndaki g\u00f6lge, o \u015fakaktaki ince damar\u0131n kas\u0131lmas\u0131 asla yalan s\u00f6ylemez. \u0130nsan ne kadar saklanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rsa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fs\u0131n, portre \u00e7izerinin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak kal\u0131r.<\/p>\n \u015eimdilerde bak\u0131yorum da ortal\u0131k birbirinin ayn\u0131s\u0131 y\u00fczlerle dolmu\u015f. Instagram filtrelerinin, birbirine benzeyen burun ameliyatlar\u0131n\u0131n, p\u00fcr\u00fczs\u00fczle\u015ftirilmi\u015f ciltlerin ve “ideal insan” \u015fablonlar\u0131n\u0131n istilas\u0131 alt\u0131nday\u0131z. Herkes o kadar p\u00fcr\u00fczs\u00fcz, o kadar hatas\u0131z ve dolay\u0131s\u0131yla o kadar s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 ki! Yahu, bir insan\u0131 g\u00fczel yapan \u015fey onun kusurlar\u0131d\u0131r, bunu ne zaman unuttuk? Asimetridir bizi biz yapan. Sol g\u00f6z\u00fcn sa\u011f g\u00f6zden biraz daha k\u0131s\u0131k olmas\u0131d\u0131r o bak\u0131\u015fa anlam\u0131 veren. Hayat\u0131n sana att\u0131\u011f\u0131 tokatlar\u0131n, o i\u00e7ten kahkahalar\u0131n\u0131n, uykusuz gecelerinin izidir y\u00fcz\u00fcn. \u015eimdi o izleri silip yerine plastik bir maske takt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, geriye \u00e7izecek ne kal\u0131yor san\u0131yorsun? Sadece bo\u015fluk. Ruhsuz birer geometrik \u015fekilden ibaret oluyorsunuz.<\/p>\n Sanat d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda da bu durumdan nasibini alan \u00e7ok oldu tabii. “Efendim art\u0131k dijital \u00e7a\u011fday\u0131z, tuval bitti, kalem \u00f6ld\u00fc” diyen o entel dantel tak\u0131m\u0131 t\u00fcredi yine. Benim felsefem bellidir, beni takip edenler iyi bilir: Alet de\u011fi\u015fir, el de\u011fi\u015fmez.<\/strong> \u0130stersen eline en son model dijital tableti al, istersen k\u00f6m\u00fcr karas\u0131yla duvar\u0131 \u00e7iz; o \u00e7izgiyi \u00e7eken senin kalbinden, vicdan\u0131ndan ve nihayetinde o nas\u0131rl\u0131 parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n ucundan s\u00fcz\u00fclen histir. Aleti kutsamay\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131n art\u0131k. Bir iPad’in ekran\u0131na dokunurken de, asitsiz ka\u011f\u0131da kur\u015fun kalem s\u00fcrterken de arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m tek bir \u015fey var: Samimiyet. E\u011fer \u00e7izdi\u011fin portrede o insan\u0131n ruhunu yakalayamad\u0131ysan, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en geli\u015fmi\u015f yaz\u0131l\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 kullansan ne yazar? Sadece \u00e7ok pahal\u0131 bir boyama kitab\u0131 boyam\u0131\u015f olursun, o kadar.<\/p>\n Peki, bir portre \u00e7izerken s\u00fcre\u00e7 nas\u0131l i\u015fler? Merak edenler i\u00e7in o “gizemli” d\u00fcnyay\u0131 biraz aralayal\u0131m. Ben birini \u00e7izmeye ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce onunla konu\u015furum. E\u011fer hayattaysa ve kar\u015f\u0131mda oturuyorsa, ona havadan sudan sorular sorar\u0131m. Nereli oldu\u011funu sorar\u0131m mesela. (\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u0130\u00e7 Anadolu’nun r\u00fczgar\u0131 insan\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc farkl\u0131 kurutur, Karadeniz\u2019in nemi farkl\u0131 yumu\u015fat\u0131r, bunu sadece bakan g\u00f6zler anlar.) Konu\u015ftuk\u00e7a o savunma mekanizmalar\u0131, o yapay g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeler yava\u015f yava\u015f d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr. \u0130\u015fte tam o d\u00f6k\u00fclme an\u0131nda, o insan\u0131n ger\u00e7ek y\u00fcz\u00fc ortaya \u00e7\u0131kar. \u0130\u015fte o an kalemi ka\u011f\u0131da vurma an\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n E\u011fer yolunuz bir g\u00fcn ger\u00e7ek bir portreyle kesi\u015firse, ona bakarken \u015fu detaylara dikkat edin, benden size k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir k\u0131yak olsun:<\/p>\n Bizim i\u015fimiz empati i\u015fidir canca\u011f\u0131z\u0131m. Empati \u00f6yle s\u00fcsl\u00fc kitaplarda yazan, plazalarda seminerleri verilen o i\u00e7i bo\u015falt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kavramlardan de\u011fil benim i\u00e7in. Empati, o kalemin ucundaki somut a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131kt\u0131r. \u00c7izdi\u011fin insan\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kendi parmak ucunda hissetmiyorsan, onun yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kendi i\u00e7inde bir yerlerde duymuyorsan, o \u00e7izim sadece teknik bir egzersizden \u00f6teye ge\u00e7emez. Ben bir fa\u015fistin portresini \u00e7izemem mesela. \u00c7izmem. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onun y\u00fcz\u00fcnde g\u00f6rece\u011fim tek \u015fey o vicdans\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 o karanl\u0131k \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmedir ve benim kalemim o \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmeyi besleyecek kadar ucuz de\u011fildir. Ama sokaktaki o ka\u011f\u0131t toplay\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n, o “\u00f6teki” ilan edilen ama asl\u0131nda bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en temiz kalpli insanlar\u0131ndan biri olan adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki her bir k\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6pe \u00f6pe \u00e7izerim.<\/p>\n D\u00fcnya de\u011fi\u015fiyor, teknoloji geli\u015fiyor, insanlar kendilerini sanal d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n o steril odalar\u0131na kapat\u0131yor. Ama ne yaparsan\u0131z yap\u0131n, insan s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131na olan ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z hi\u00e7 bitmeyecek. O y\u00fczden arada bir telefonlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 cebinize koyun, o sahte filtreleri kapat\u0131n ve kar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zdaki insan\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne ger\u00e7ekten bak\u0131n. Korkmay\u0131n, \u0131s\u0131rmaz. Sadece bak\u0131n ve onun hikayesini anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131n. G\u00f6receksiniz, d\u00fcnya o zaman biraz daha \u00e7ekilebilir bir yer olacak.<\/p>\n Hadi bakay\u0131m, \u015fimdi usulca da\u011f\u0131l\u0131n ve m\u00fcmk\u00fcnse m\u0131sm\u0131l olun Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn metroda, tam kar\u015f\u0131mda oturan o h\u0131rpani adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne dik dik bakarken yakaland\u0131m. Hani \u015fu her g\u00fcn yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7ip gitti\u011finiz, d\u00fcnyay\u0131 s\u0131rt\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f gibi duran, y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki her \u00e7izgi birer […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[46],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1903","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-sanat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1903","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1903"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1903\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1903"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1903"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demirhanocak.com\/site26\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1903"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}\n
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